Obviously, I haven't gotten anymore creative with my post titles. I'd like to say that I'll come up with something a lot more witty, but let's be honest - 200 days from now the post is probably going to be "DAY 203." :)
Yesterday was really hard. I announced my disease to the world and posted a link to this blog for all to see. I called my boss to let him know what was going on. I tried to schedule an appointment with an oncologist at Seattle Cancer Care Alliance, and failed. Hopefully that happens today. Overall, yesterday was a whole bunch of suck.
It still hasn't really sunk in yet. It's starting to though. When you're 27 and you have to search the internet for information about freezing your eggs because the chemotherapy is probably going to destroy your chances of ever having a child the normal way, it starts to sink in.
A little bit ago I was looking at a couple of posts from an old blog that I used to have on this account. It's amazing how much your life can change in a matter of years. Five years ago, I was days away from my first trip to Nashville. I was seeing my favorite band (that actually doesn't exist anymore) perform on their first headlining tour, and my biggest worry in the world was whether I would be in the front row or not. Never in a million years would I have guessed that in less than five years, I'd be fighting this monster.
While it's no longer a top priority in my life, I still have the travel-for-music bug. And I'm really thankful for that, because the Florida Georgia Line cruise to the Bahamas that's coming up in November is the only thing that's keeping me sane right now. When I start to feel overwhelmed with all of the cancer crap, I have my friends to distract me by talking about cabana rentals in Great Stirrup Cay. It won't make the cancer go away, but it sure is nice to be able to picture myself laying on a lounge chair in paradise in 51 days.
I should probably head to bed. I have to wake up earlier than normal for a follow-up appointment with the surgeon, then I go back to work for the first night since having the biopsy done.
I know that we don't know each other but I found your story through a mutual friend. I wanted to let you know that you are in my thoughts and prayers! You are obviously so strong to be sharing your story and journey. You are an inspiration! Keep your head up and keep pushing forward! You got this!
ReplyDeleteThank you for the kind words! I really appreciate the support. It means a lot to have so many people standing behind me as I prepare to battle. :)
ReplyDelete